Welcome!
I’m amazed they initially didn’t DF you. They must have really liked you. I had a JC meeting for drunkenness in 2010. I wasn’t DF’d because I was “repentant”. They knew for years before this that I had a struggle with alcohol. But it was about 6 – 9 months later that I began questioning everything because of the lack of love they showed and the way I was treated after the announcement that I was publicly reproved. Things just weren’t adding up for me.
It is unbelievable all you learn once you open Pandora’s Box. Once open, you can’t close it. My head was spinning
My family and I celebrated Christmas for the first time this year too. My wife followed me out about a year and a half after I left. Good luck with everything. I look forward to reading more of your story.